A lot of stuff to talk about today…so in the words of the great Phil Defranco – let’s just get into it!
We have a relationship with our body and I know that sort of “goes without saying” but your body talks to you and gives you clues if you are doing things right or wrong. If you do things right, you start feeling amazing and when you eat the wrong stuff, you get sluggish and tired. You have to learn how to understand your own body.
Over the weekend- mostly Sunday, I think my body wanted me to understand that it’s tired of the daily weighing and stressing and focusing on hitting a specific number on the scale in a set amount of time….a time that wasn’t even a part of the original agreement. When I started 2018, I wanted to lost 100 lbs. in 6 months and as I got closer I started thinking I could push myself to lose it in 5 months and I think my body was just tired of me focusing on the wrong thing.
I was starving all day Sunday, I had gravings that I hadn’t had forever and I just saw food everywhere- so I decided to have a “cheat day” or “carb up day” or whatever you want to call it. I decided to take the day off of trying and just enjoy a day of shopping with the family. We had Sonny’s BBQ and I had some cand, Oreos, McDonald’s Iced Mocha and some Bacon Cheese Fries (the chips…not the fries.)
In all honesty, all of the stress was just gone- I realized that there was no way I would hit the 100 lbs. in 5 months now and it was OK. Most of the stuff I ate wasn’t as good as I remembered and I quickly got back on track on Monday with a 24 hour fast.
You can’t really do keto and have cheat days because you knock yourself out of ketosis and have to start all over again but I’m OK with that…if I’m going to be successful long term, I have to have these few moments. The reason I know it was my body and not just random cravings is because I did the 24 hour fast with almost no problems…I wasn’t even hungry. I washed my car, put up a mailbox, did things around the house and did my exercise routine.
I found myself more worried about anyone who may read this or may be watching my journey more than myself again and I need to nip that in the bud- it’s got to stop. I’m at the point that I can’t really do the daily weights anymore…almost 5 months of it and it’s become too much of the focus.
I’ve used it for what I wanted it for and it’s time to stop…I also need to change the day of my weekly weigh in because doing it on Monday (after the weekend) is just putting too much stress on me. My weight always goes up over the weekend, no matter what I do- could be I snack too much or those are my rest days….I have no clue but it’s not really showing what I accomplished during the week. My weeks need to end on Saturday morning to get a good understanding of all of the work I put into the prior week. It will throw of my weekly a little bit but I’m good with that.
I’m going to start weighing on Saturday morning so I have time to work off the weekend the following week. I’d had the short week last week and this will be the longer week in order to get everything on a new track and to give myself time to work off my carb up….from this point on, I’m only weighing once per week- Saturday morning. (I’ll still do a monthly total on whatever day the month ends on.)
I’m still focused on my original goal of 100 lbs. in 6 months and I still have a month and a few days to hit that goal. If I don’t hit that goal, I’ll just keep pushing towards it…I still have a long way to go.
I’m eating again and will until 6pm Wednesday night. After dinner, I’m going to try to do a full 36 hour fast until Friday morning at 6am which will be my final weigh in for May and first for June.
This journey is a living process that will grow and adapt as I continue and this is just another way of listening to my body and figuring out what is best for me- the person on the journey. This book is being written by me….FOR ME….not for the reader. It’s my story to be told and shouldn’t be changed to make whoever may be watching happy.
Love, Peace and Sharkyness