If you have never been extremely overweight and honestly addicted to food- mostly sugar and carbs- then you don’t really know what it’s like. I’ve never used addictive drugs but I’ve seen people who have and I will tell you that carbs/sugar is a hell of a drug.
I dropped 110.8 lbs in the first 6 months of 2018 so I took a cheat weekend to celebrate and then I got right back on it…but then I had another cheat weekend because I was having cravings and then another cheat weekend over the 4th of July holiday and into that weekend.
I can honestly tell you that it was uncontrollable- at first, it didn’t taste the same and wasn’t all that great but then it tasted better…and better and then it got amazing and then it got where I was craving “bad” stuff all the time. We went shopping at Meijers and I had NO intention of getting anything bad but I walked out with brownies and cookies and we ate them in the car and I felt just like a drug addict getting a fix. I would highly consider the first part of July as a binge by a drug addict and I feel like I’m starting all over again and that is exactly what I’m doing.
The scale went up 18 lbs since 07.01.2018 (9 days) and I know that isn’t all fat or actual body weight- there is a lot of water weight thrown in there as well. Normally, that would devastate me and I would just give up and continue on the downward spiral until I gained it all back…but not this time. I wasn’t afraid to step on that scale and see all the damage done- normally, I would just ignore it and pretend it wasn’t happening.
I stepped on it and accepted that number (actually already down 3 lbs today) and I did perfect yesterday and I’m going to do perfect today and I’m going to get right back into ketosis and pick up the exercise and continue on until I overcome this little set back and continue losing weight. I still have a long way to go and several goals to reach and that is the different this time.
There is no more being afraid of the scale or being afraid that I just went on a uncontrollable binge and I’m taking responsibility for it and I’m moving past it.
I’ve got my plan laid out and I’m back to being highly motivated- I’m hitting the Sharketo Dojo tonight with the full understanding that it could take the rest of July to get back where I was and that is 100% fine…because I WILL get back there and then blow right through it. I know Sharketo works too well and I know how amazing it makes me feel and I know I can do it. I enjoyed the binge (well sort of, I felt like shit the entire time) but now it’s back to the regular routine and consistency.
Recovery isn’t an option.
Love, Peace and Sharkyness