…well, at least temporarily.
The big “month of days off” is over and now it’s back to work…everyday…for like 4 whole weeks with NO days off!
Honestly- this is both good and bad.
It’s bad because, well- there are no days off!
It’s good though because it’s way easier staying on track while at work- I don’t have a cold box full of food and I don’t have any down time to just set and think about food- weekends have been the death of me.
When I decided to write this little journal, to follow my weight loss, I understood that I would pretty much be the only person reading it- so why lie to myself?
The last 5 months have been hell and I have NOT been doing Sharketo- Sharketo doesn’t involve “cheat days” and I’ve basically had at least one of those every weekend since the middle of the year and it’s clearly shown with my weight loss. I dropped 110 lbs the first 6 months and I’m fighting to barely hold on to losing 22 lbs in the last 5 months. Sure, the weight loss will always slow down but not like this…I’m still over 300 lbs.
When this happens, you have to step back and look at what you are doing and be 100% honest with yourself and it’s pretty clear- I’m still eating Sharketo about 90% of the time but that 10% is enough to take away any benefit I’m getting.
We had an amazing SharketoGiving and ate perfectly and actually made the holiday work only to turn around and have a Black Friday full of candy and pizza. I did “shut that shit down” (in the words of Negan)..so it didn’t last long but it was enough to set me back yet again.
There aren’t any excuses- I’ve been trying to do something I heard about from Dr. Berg- instead of just logging what you eat throughout the day- ask yourself WHY you are eating it. I cheated because I wanted some Hersey Kisses (one of favorites and the best chocolate in the world) and that led to me saying- “well, I’m already out of ketosis, might as well eat it all!” Like I said though…I stopped it after only a couple of hours, instead of 3 days…so that is a big plus.
The positive is that I quickly got a handle on it and didn’t do too much damage- but now I only have 5 full days to try to salvage November and not have my first month of gaining all year.
That means a week of trying to go strict keto…as strict as possible- no sugar free candy, no diet soda, IF, OMAD focusing on mostly meat and veggies. I haven’t been having problems getting my workouts in- the issue has been the cheating every weekend…that is the only reason I’ve been able to maintain- I’m basically working out to cheat- I’m going backwards two steps every time I go foward one…so it’s starting to catch up with me but not as bad as if I were just going all steps backwards!
I’ve got 4 weeks until my Christmas vacation to lose as much as I can- I understand that 1.5 weeks in late December is going to be ROUGH so I have to make a huge chunk RIGHT NOW. I’ll be home for the final 11 days of the year and I don’t do very well at home- so I basically have 4 weeks left to lose as much as I can and then do everything I can to maintain it for that last 11 days.
I’ve played around enough for the last 5 months and it’s time to get back- thankfully, we’ve done a very good job of making Sharketo a daily thing and stuck with great recipes and food so if I can stop the cheating- I should be able to drop a decent amount.
The problem is- I have NO clue why I keep doing this- the food isn’t that great and there is a keto version of pretty much ANYTHING we want! It doesn’t make sense.
Weight loss is mostly a mental game- I’ve got the food and exercise down…I just keep fighting this mental game and I am winning overall but even a small lose is enough to set you way back.
Time to focus.
Love, Peace and Sharkyness