What a perfect day to get my life back on track.
Today would have been my mom’s 64th birthday but she won’t get to see it- a perfect excuse for me to load up on shitty food, be depressed and allow death to overtake me- but I spent most of March sick or just not giving a shit and it’s time for that to be over.
I hate Billy Idol but he was right…”it’s a nice day to starrrrrrt agaaiiiiiiiin!!!”
I actually started yesterday- gotta start on a Sunday but today I’m getting SharkysWorld.com back in order, catching up on stuff and getting back to my life routine.
I still have a lot of the weight gain, from March, to work back off during April- need to get back to writing, drawing, playing video games, making videos and being happy- I think it’s what mom would have wanted.
Evan starts his high school marching band life tomorrow so a lot of thing are fixing to change and I’m stressed, scared, worried, excited and amazed all at the same time.
As for Commons4Kids- we currently have enough cards in stock to hit our 10 million card donated mark.
Color Run 5K is coming up.
July 20th- first roller coaster ride.
I have 3.5 months to get my shit together and get as close to my final goal as possible- if I stick to the routine and kick ass, I can lose a SHIT TON of weight over that timeframe. I may not hit the 200 lbs lost mark by then but I’m going to give it my best shot and still going to celebrate how far I’ve come and life in general- it will be the 1 year anniversary of mom passing away.
As far as life- I don’t have much else to say- right now, I need my action to step up.
It is a sad day but I think April 8th will always be just a day of reflection for me- for the rest of my life. April 8th will always be a day to remember my mom, while July 20th will always be a day to celebrate life. July 20th is going to be a day that I don’t work and we do something fun…not just shopping or eating out but bucket list type stuff.
I’ll get through today because I’m getting my motivation back- I think maybe I knew this day was coming and just let it get the best of me, plus throw in being sick most of the month and I just gave up but now the day is here and I need to use it to push me forward.
Every time we went to see mom in the hospital, she would either be bragging about my weight loss or we would have nurses stopping us in the hall asking me about it. Mom told everyone and she lived long enough to see me drop the first 100 lbs and I think she was more proud of that then me donating millions of trading cards to kids- which doesn’t make sense to me.
I think I need to face the fact that March is always going to be rough on me- I get another year older, death reminds me that I barely made it through and I’ll probably always get a little depressed because April is coming up and April has always represented my mom.
It’s going to be a rough few weeks to try to get back on track, end the cravings and stop myself from looking for that instant gratification that food gives me.
April 8th- what a perfect day to get my life back on track.
Love, Peace and Sharkyness