I’m sure you’ve heard the saying- “opinions are like assholes, everyone has one…” but we should also remember that most people try to keep those assholes covered up- not me…not any longer.
I could throw out some cliché quotes like –
“This above all: to thine own self be true” – Shakespeare- Hamlet
“I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not” Kurt Cobain
“Girl, you looks good, won’t you back that azz up” – Juvenile
The fact is though- I’m happier when I’m myself. I love writing and I love putting researched facts out- facts that go directly against ignorance in opinions, thoughts and beliefs.
When I try to be nice to people I disagree with on things that are truly important- like the way all humans should be treated- I hate myself. I’m fine with disagreeing with anyone on things that aren’t important but I don’t feel you can really disagree on the big stuff- there is a right and wrong- and I’m not on the right side or wrong side- I’m on the reality side- the side with the facts, evidence, history and truth.
When I try to push that “Sharky” side of me in- I binge eat, feel like shit and honestly hate myself. I get to the point that I don’t want to be on this planet any longer and that pushes me into a depression type situation that I don’t really enjoy.
I like being “Sharky”- I like speaking out against ignorance and I like being a cocky, trolly asshole and I’m pretty happy showing you my asshole. (I mean, not like in a porn type way but my opinions…you get that, right…from above when I compared assholes to opinions. See, I’m saying I like putting my opinions out there- even if it offends you…like showing you my asshole would…but I’m not saying I’m going to DM you a picture of my asshole.)
That is when I feel my best. I’m pretty good at it honestly- even though others respond in juvenile like fashion without evidence or facts and just want to think they are right because they have a “feeling”.
I keep thinking that I need to push this side of me down and do all this positive shit but the positive shit that I’m trying to do basically puts a “gag order” on me because I don’t want to offend anyone. I’m still all for doing charity work, posting positive stories and doing everything I can to truly make the world a better place and not just talk about it. But I also need to call out all the negative shit that is literally destroying the world around me- and the people in it.
But continuing to fight the urge to write amazing stuff – Fuck that.
I think that is why I’ve struggled so much over the last year or so- I’m not being myself and I’m not writing what I want to write about because I’m more worried about others than I am myself.
The huge problem is that I literally piss EVERYONE off on something- I promise you…even if you love me, I will piss you off.
I piss off the Conservative Republicans when I post facts about Trump and their party but the Liberal Democrats love it.
Then I post something against the ignorance and flat out falseness of religions so I loss most of the Democrats then.
I’ll say something about race and lose the liberal folks; I’ll say something about girls and lose the feminist.
I’ll say something about the Yankees or Reds and lose every other baseball fan.
Then I remember- sharks don’t really give a shit if another shark is their friend or not and they don’t give a shit if you agree or even like what they do- they simply do it.
Sharks be like that sometimes….no….ALL the time. A shark doesn’t think twice if biting this chick’s leg off may led to all humans turning against them, he just does it and then swims along on his day not giving a swimming fuck.
Be more like sharks- you’ll be happier.
Love, Peace and Sharkyness