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….well, not yet…but soon!

It seems I’ve spent most of my life trying to hit that 399 lbs. mark and I’ve done it several times, only to gain it all back plus some and head back to the drawing board.

I’m 2.5 lbs. away from that mark again…so what makes this time different?

Back in 2006, I reached 295 lbs. (starting from 412.8 lbs.) and I was the lowest weight of my entire life but I was doing a “diet” and I was trying to force myself to eat stuff I didn’t like and even though I was at my lowest weight, I was probably my unhappiest. I’ve been with my wife since 2003 and we had our son in 2006 and life has been amazing since the day I saw her…but I was unhappy with my lifestyle and that isn’t a good way to live. I started slacking and it was quickly all over and I was back into the 400’s in no time.

Then I stopped and asked…how???

I tried several times after that…in Oct 2014, I hit 399 lbs. again….and gained it all back.

In July 2016, I again hit that 399 lbs. mark but I just couldn’t continue doing because I hated it and I quickly gained it all back and hit my highest of 440 lbs.

On Jan 1, 2017…I decided to try again because I’m no quitter and I lost weight again….only to start gaining it back- but this time, I caught it and fought my heart out and never let myself get over back over 425 lbs but I could tell that I was about to go over because I just couldn’t force myself to do that anymore. I was unhappy and I loved food too much.

I’ve always been against weight loss surgery and swore that I would rather die than take the route…however, once I started realizing I was losing control again, I started talking to my wife and considering starting the process.

My wife’s friend is going through the process and there is a diet that you have to do for a few months before they will consider you for the surgery and she was super nice enough to give us a copy of it….it didn’t take long to realize that it was keto.

My wife and I decided to try the diet because if I was going to get weight loss surgery, I would have to prove I can change my lifestyle.

On April 17th, my first weigh in was at 425.8 lbs. and I decided to honestly give this a shot…to learn how and why it works and to stick with the process. That was only 3.5 weeks ago and I’m down 23 lbs. and I’m no longer considering weight loss surgery….why? If I can lose the weight this way….then why would I even consider it?

I can say, this journey to that 399 lbs. mark has been, by far, the easiest and happiest I’ve ever tried! I get to eat the foods I love and there is a keto friendly version for just about anything you can think of. I don’t feel tortured or stressed and I’m starting to really feel the energy and happiness that comes along with keto.

This time is different because of the way I feel…so when I hit that 399 lbs. mark…I’m going to be extremely happy because I truly believe it’s the last time I’m truly over 400 lbs. and I don’t think I’ll ever return there.

This is a process that I can stick with, through the weight gain and through the plateaus because I don’t feel like I’m doing all this work for nothing and I don’t have to stress about the day I lose control- even if you lose control on keto…it’s not really losing control.

Everything comes in moderation but if you have that day where you just stay hungry all the time and you load up on eggs, bacon or whatever…you still haven’t added any carbs so the damage is minimal and you can just continue on….it’s amazing.

I’ve read stories where keto just doesn’t work for some people and I understand that it’s harder on women and I’m truly sorry for that because it’s not far and I hate shoving my success in anyone’s face that is having a hard time; but at the same time….this is a change that I’ve never felt in my 20+ years of trying to lose weight…it’s a process and lifestyle that I can truly embrace.

Best of luck to everyone!

Love, Peace and Sharkyness

Keto Asshats

First… Down another pound!!!

Facebook can be such a great place and it can be such a negative place- it is what YOU make it. I’ve deleted people, removed myself from groups, unliked pages and done all that in order to get my feed where I want it.

One of the worst places on Facebook are the groups….any group…regardless of the subject matter.

I joined several keto groups when I first started this 3 weeks ago and I think I’m down to 3 groups that I haven’t either left or been kicked out of and that is fine with me, I have no problem weeding out the bad folks.

Like most folks, I searched for “keto” and joined the group with the most people…makes sense, right? We’ll that group turned out to be ran by a couple of lunatics. They weren’t so much about helping people as they were about trying to get you to pay them for webinars and classes and all that crap. I watched as the admins tried to control every single word that was posted, even in comments…if you DARED say something against them or even mention something that didn’t agree with, you got booted…no questions. People in that group were so scared, they would literally tag the admins and ask permission to post things- I guess they were scared because that was their only form of support and they didn’t want to lose it.

We’ll…that’s not me. One of the main admins made a post and I put a comment in and the comment was deleted and I was kicked in less than 10 minutes; I wasn’t rude…didn’t use bad language….just pointed out that the admins were rude sometimes and it was more discouraging then helpful. This admin had been doing keto for YEARS…considered himself a teacher of the art of keto and was charging a huge amount of money for learning material…yet he was fat!!!

Now, don’t go getting triggered there honey bunch…I’m not body shaming him…I’m simply saying that a fat guy doing keto for years probably shouldn’t be teaching others.

So…why should you listen to me and my advice? I’m still morbidly obese!!!

Well, you shouldn’t! Honestly, I’m not telling you anything…I’m simply writing what I do, what I eat and my thoughts on MY journey- I am not, in any way, telling you what you should or shouldn’t do. This is a personal journey and you can only become a keto master by adapting things to fit your needs to not only be healthy but also enjoy life.

I made another post on a Facebook page and it quickly got over a thousand likes and hundreds of comments…so many comments that the admins had to disable commenting on the post! 99% of the comments were positive and people thanking me or saying what most of us were thinking.

You have something in the keto world that are called “keto snobs”…I like to call them “the keto elitist” but either way, they aren’t really helpful…yet I think they honestly try to be. You have these folks who believe you should have zero sugar, zero fake sugar, only eat 100% grass fed, “clean” and organic. They come off smug and they feel like their way is the only way and if you aren’t doing it their way, you aren’t doing keto.

People, like me, who are just starting and making HUGE changes in their life don’t need these keto elitist talking down to them- that has been the ONLY negative or discouraging thing I’ve seen with this lifestyle…those asshats.

When you first make such a huge change, it’s scary because it really seems like there isn’t anything you can eat and if you listen to them, there really isn’t. They seem to eat the same exact things daily with no variety and their life seems to suck and they usually really haven’t had that big of a success.

I want to be the guy that goes from 440 lbs. to 240 lbs. (yep, still overweight) and I want to share what I’ve learned and how I did it but I also want to enjoy life.

The problem is, these keto elitist don’t understand that most people have common sense…and what I mean by that is, they aren’t going to buy sugar free candy and then eat the whole box because that isn’t healthy either and when I say that eating sugar free stuff is OK, I’m not meaning to make it your entire menu…but it’s OK from time to time to stop a craving and help you succeed.

Here is the perfect example – last night, my wife and I got a box of Atkins Carmel Peanut Rolls…which are basically like a mix of Baby Ruth and Snickers and they are amazing!

Now, this would cause a keto elitist’s mind to literally explode!!! You can’t have that “chemical shitstorm” on keto!!! They would just literally lose their shit! Then they would send me hateful comments and messages about how I’m telling people to go out and eat this crap…but I’m not telling you to go eat anything. I’m telling you that WE got them…we tried them and they are amazing. The wife and I split one and it seems to take care of candy cravings. Sure, it may have some unhealthy chemicals but how unhealthy is it going to be for me to lose the cravings fight and hit up the candy section and just go nuts?

Sometimes the lesser of two evils is the best way to go and, damn it to hell you keto asshats, I understand that you don’t have to eat either but it’s delicious and sometimes you need to enjoy life. Sometimes you need to make slower changes by adapting what you are eating.

Here is another example- you have some of these folks go nuts if you tell them you went to Wendy’s and got a burger with no ketchup/no bun; you’ll get “oh that food is so unhealthy, you are killing yourself…blah…blah…blah” Truth is, my wife and I were eating out about 8 times a week and cramming as much food in as we could and now we eat out once a week and it fits into our macros- so, sure, it may not be the healthiest but it’s way better than we were doing and I’m sure, with time, we’ll get better.

All that rambling to say this…when people make positive changes, don’t hit them with negativity. If they are making better choices, don’t complain that they aren’t making the PERFECT choice. Making better choices is the starting place….then you research, learn and start making better and better choices until you reach a happy medium where you can lose weight, get healthier but still enjoy life and come up with something you can live with. I’m still trying to find that place.

Back in 2005, I dropped 117 lbs. doing something I couldn’t live with…..and I crashed and gained it all back plus an extra 28 lbs. and it’s been there for over a decade.

Don’t be that person…and don’t be that person that discourages folks from trying keto…don’t be a keto asshat.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness

3 Week Update

3 weeks of Keto is done and I’m down 21 lbs. and feel amazing!

I’m starting to feel the energy levels go up, I’m happier and I seem to wake up and get out of bed easier. I really do think this is something that I can do for the rest of my life and it feels pretty amazing, I feel like I’m taking control of the situation and there is nothing better. I feel better overall and have already noticed less pain when walking, etc.

It’s not all positive though, there are a few things that I consider negatives and things that I still need to tweak and work on.


1.      My clothes are fitting better and I’ve noticed a huge change in the walking I do three times a day- faster, less feet pain, etc.

2.      The wife and I went to Buffalo Wild Wings for lunch yesterday and got the small traditional wings and a salad. I wasn’t aware that the salad came with a breadstick and I wasn’t really happy about that; it looked amazing but there wasn’t even a question; I put it over with the tomatoes (that they forgot to take off) and ignored it. The salad was amazing, we drank water and after we finished, I realized that next time I can go with just a snack size and the salad and it would be enough food! This is going from eating half of an appetizer and a medium order of wings.

3.      We finally made a keto friendly version of crackers/chips so we can have some low carb cheese dips, etc and they were amazing. We took our Hammerhead Dough (recipe in the recipe section) and rolled it out thinner, cut it in a bunch of little squares and kicked it a bit longer…until they started getting brown. We added some garlic/onion powder for flavor and they were amazing by themselves and even better in the cheese/jalapeno dip we have. We cut it into about 75 squares and half of that had 9 carbs. It is really high in calories but you don’t have to eat half of them.


1.      The weight loss has slowed and I’ve went up and down a few times.

2.      I haven’t really started my exercise program the way I wanted yet- I’ve been doing fasted cardio in the morning but I’ve wanted to add so much more, however, I’m still letting life get in the way

3.      I’m still obsessed with the scale. I have made myself a promise though, once I see 399 lbs. and I know I’m out of the 400’s, I’m going to try to only weigh about once a month…I just really need to see that number drop into the 300’s.

4.      Also…we finally made a keto friendly version of crackers/chips….and YES, that was also positive…but negative because they are SOOO DAMN GOOD I have to eat the entire half! (and could easily eat my wife’s half as well!)

I’m on my way to becoming a Keto Master and I’ve never felt better! I did NOT feel this good back in 2005 when I lost 112 lbs.- that was terrible because I was making myself unhappy and forcing myself to eat foods I really didn’t like and I did something for about a year that I just couldn’t make last. I tried to go without specific things and that isn’t a fun life. There is a keto friendly recipe for just about everything and sugar free stuff is pretty awesome these days.

Keto is the way to go, period.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness

18 Days of Keto

Another day and another pound gone.

I’ve been pretty successful getting up early this week and doing fasted cardio. I’m doing a 16/8 fast and eating my first meal at 12:30 for lunch and going to 8:30. I’ve started using the MCT oil but only went with .25 of a serving because I read you have to start super slow but I didn’t feel anything- no upset stomach or other issues, so today I’m going to go ahead and up it to .50 of a serving and test that out. I’ve also started drinking chicken/beef bouillon to get some extra sodium to help out with leg cramps; it’s actually pretty yummy! It taste like eating Ramen noodles but without the noodles.

I noticed that since I’ve start eating a lot more “red” meat and less “lean” meat, I’ve actually been getting tons of iron, so I stopped taking my iron pill as well. I had issues before with a deficiency but that’s because I basically only ate chicken and turkey. I also decided to stop taking the potassium after reading some major concerns with it. I’m going to find other ways to get more through my food.

Here are some totals and some good stuff to help keep me motivated!

18 full days on keto.
21 lbs dropped- from 425.8 to 404.6 (my highest weight was 440.8…so really, 36 lbs. lost total)

I feel great, it’s been easier to get up early and I have noticed some more energy. I have also come to realize that we need to only buy sugar free candy on the weekends because I can’t be trusted with it in the house.

Today, I’m wearing pants that are a smaller size- they are a bit snug but they wouldn’t even button before, so that is a step in the right direction. ALSO, my favorite red button up shirt will not only button now but it will actually wrap around past the buttons!!!

I still feel motivated and amazing! Great food- last night we had 2 Angus burgers (no buns)- I made one with mustard, sugar free pickles and reduced sugar ketchup for that classic American burger feel and then the other I put a couple pieces of bacon, some blue cheese crumbles and a little Worcestershire sauce and they were amazing!!! I got the feel and taste of hamburgers without the carbs.

So far….this entire thing has been positive.

The problem is, the wife’s weight really isn’t moving and that is an issue with all diets/healthy lifestyles…it’s just harder for girls to lose weight, which is probably why they are sexier chubbier…but that’s just my preference. The female body is WAY more complicate then us guys and that really does suck.

Please remember, again, I’m not telling YOU to do what I’m doing because it may not work…the wife is eating the same stuff I am, usually less and not having the same success. You have to test out things and figure out what works for you…I’m just posting what I did and my success, please understand that this isn’t your typical success…there are several factors- guys lose faster, I’m extremely morbidly obese, I made a drastic change overnight- you may not lose any weight at all and you may lose some and stall- just don’t give up. After doing all the research, reading tons and tons of articles and actually doing it myself, I really think this is the best way to go.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness

Life Is Better

I can’t stay off the scale and I know that is NOT a good thing…however, I am down another 1 lb so that is awesome, after gaining 3 lbs. I’m not really sure what happened, but I’m back down and I feel great.

There are a few things that I need to stop doing- like weighing myself daily and keep track of weight lost in so many days because it’s not a race- it’s a lifestyle change with a goal in mind and it doesn’t matter if I reach that goal in a year or five years…I just need to reach it. That is so much easier to type than to actually do!

With that said, such a huge turn around is pretty awesome and it even impresses me- I’m down 18 lbs. in 16 days and I feel 100% better! The weight loss will slow but I’m hoping the way I feel doesn’t change.

Here are a few changes – 

1.      Just two weeks ago, I was having trouble walking two laps around my office building; my feet hurt really bad, it was hard to walk sometimes and they would constantly throb- even if I was just setting on the couch, my feet would just kill me. Now, I’ve noticed about 90% less pain and I’m walking 4 laps/3 times per day (about 2.5 miles) and I could walk a few more if I had enough time on breaks/lunch.

2.      My pants are already getting really loose and I have to keep pulling them up- there were getting snuck, guess it’s time to find (or buy) a belt!

3.      My watch is really loose, it keeps sliding around my wrist. It was getting snuck as well, I tried moving up a hole but that was still just a bit too tight but it’s starting to get annoying.

4.      I’m getting up early and doing fasted cardio, were before my wife had to practically push me out of bed to get me to wake up and, even then, I usually feel asleep on the toilet or standing in the shower.

5.      I’m getting to work on time! I’m getting up early, hitting the bike and getting out of the house a little quicker. I’m not doing backflips out of the bed but I am getting up, so that is a huge plus.

6.      I’m overall happier- I have a situation that is causing me a lot of stress but I’m not allowing it to push me towards food, like I have in the past. 99% of my life is beyond awesome but that 1% is an extremely stressful situation and I would use ANY excuse to run to food. If someone looked at me wrong, I would “need to just go get fast food.” We’ve went out to eat twice so far- once was Buffalo Wild Wings and we didn’t get fried pickles and the other was Wendy’s where we got two double stacks with no ketchup and removed the buns. Honestly, I haven’t even felt the need to do that…if I get stressed, I know I can munch down on some bacon or sugar free candy and that seems to be enough.

I honestly think this time is different because there is no cheat meals/days- there is no “trying to allow myself one hit of my addiction”, thinking I can control it. This is just a constant change that I can live with.

I’ve been doing a lot of research and I hear some people saying that keto isn’t healthy and you could temporarily lose our hair but I’m already permanently losing my hair and I’ve been morbidly obese for 99% of my life…so I’m pretty sure this is healthier than that.

I’m not a DR but I know this seems to be working better than anything else I’ve tried in the past and that is good enough for me- I’ll take actual results over opinions any day.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness