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What do you do when you fail?

In the past, most of the time, I turned that fail into more fails and then basically just giving up. Sure, it always seems like I’m “trying to lose weight” and I try to walk every day I work but then I go home and eat everything I can, go wild while getting groceries and buy all the candy or my wife and I go out to eat over and over and over again. I’m always aware that I should be doing better but I let failures just pile up until I’ve gained all of my weight back and usually, then some.

It’s safe to say that this weekend was a failure – I let a “cheat” meal turn into some candy, ice cream and eating out twice- all while telling myself “you already screwed up, why not continue?”

I only lost a couple of pounds last week and I got a little frustrated and thought a cheat meal would kick things back in and went overboard.

Then, I stayed up too late last night and didn’t start “phase 3” of my plan but I did get up at the correct time, I was just too tired to try to do fasted cardio.

So….time to replan a little and try to get back up from a failing weekend-

-force myself to wake up at 5:30am
-continue to eat healthier and find tasty recipes that we actually like
-continue to walk three times throughout the day
-continue to exercise at least 5 days a week

I need to plan to start fasted cardio BY Monday….hopefully one day this week, but rearranging my sleeping schedule is hard.

I would REALLY like to be below 400 lbs. by my 39th birthday on March 3rdand then around 250 lbs by my 40thbirthday.

The weekend is over, it wasn’t great but I need to focus.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness

I Got This

10 full days into it and I gotta say, it’s going pretty good. I seem to be in one of those spots where I can just do it without thinking about it and the cravings aren’t that bad- I try and try and can’t make it a single day without binging and then BOOM, I can just do it…for whatever reason. I may do it for a few weeks, months or even over a year but that urge to binge always comes back, that is what I need to focus on for the future.

The first 10 days, I’ve dropped 16 lbs since my starting weight and 21 lbs over all from my highest weight. I’ve built up time on the bike and lowered my time for walking 4 laps at work, by almost 1 minute.

The new pants I got are already getting lose, shirts are fitting better and today I noticed an upkick in the energy I had.

I got up at 5:30am this morning and actually rolled out of bed at 5:45am and got to work 15 minutes early; I’m trying to get myself into the habit of waking up at 5:30am so I can start fasted cardio on Monday- first 15 minutes and then hopefully build up to 30 minutes before I hop in the shower.

I’ve been able to cut my carbs by about half of what I was normally getting (on a healthy day) and by a ton more from what I was getting on a non-healthy day. I’m still eating too much carbs but the wife and I are trying new foods and new ways to cut carbs- we can’t and don’t want to just go from 100+ to just zero overnight plus I don’t think that would even be possible because a lot of the stuff we eat have carbs so we are trying to find replacements.

This week I’m focusing on getting up at 5:30am and cutting carbs where I can.

Next week is going to be focused on adding fasted cardio and weight lifting three days a week.

Hopefully, by adding thinks I want to do by stages, I’ll be into a daily routine by 02.01.2017….I have about 13.5 months before I hit the big 4-0!

I really want to be under 300 lbs by 03.03.2018 (actually shooting for 290 lbs.) I would still have about 50 lbs. to hit my target but losing that much may led to skin removal surgery. I’m going to try to use resistance ropes/weights to help tone loss skin and build muscle so hopefully surgery isn’t required.

I got this….one wave at a time.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness

Operation: Food

I’ve been truly successful at weight loss one time in my life and I dropped 117 lbs. I got off track, gained it all a back and failed another thousand attempts.

The reason I was successful the first time is due to food- I ate healthy and limited my portions but over the last decade, I have never been able to do that again…at least, not for a long period of time.

Food is like a drug to me…only worse, because you have to have food to survive- no stopping cold turkey. When you are as big as I am, any exercise is good exercise- any movement will work but it’s pointless if you continue to put in more calories than you burn.

I honestly start almost every day with huge motivation that “today is THE day!” and I walk and do some exercise but I can’t even make it a full day until I’m overeating and any exercise done is just wasted.

So far though, the first couple days of 2017 have been a huge success- I’ve cut way back on the food and hit the bike and started walking again today. I actually made it through 2 full days without going to fast food or going nuts, which is amazing.

My exercise plan is great but my food plan is killing me and I need to change that and my wife and I are truly focusing on doing just that. We have some recipes that we love and know are healthy, we made “Hammer Head Pizza Dough” (recipe in the recipe section) and it was amazing and I’m really trying to look into adding more veggies anyway I can. (it’s mostly just Flat Head Pizza Dough with a little difference and a better name!)

The way I see it- I have a little over a year to “do or die”; in exactly 14 months I will hit 40 years old. 40 years old…I don’t even know what to think or say about that; so much wasted time.

I joined Dietbet and put some money on the line, I’ve got the exercise plan in place and a home gym (AKA Mass Evolution HQ) to complete it. I need to make time to learn about food, cook it and figure out ways to make healthy food that isn’t just going to piss me off when I force it down my throat. 

Love, Peace and Sharkyness