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Death of Sharketo?

No one reads this crap but myself (and maybe my wife, if the post isn’t in the Pokemon category)…so let’s get personal for a second- Sharketo isn’t dead but it is in a coma.

I have really huge mood swings- I go from being really happy and motivated to pretty depressed and it all revolves around my mom’s health, the news and life in general.

I do feel that Sharketo (lazy keto) is the perfect thing for me- I dropped 50 lbs. on it and was really happy- however, I think my food addiction is more based on emotions and control and less on the actual food. I use to think that I was just addicted to the taste of food but when you go on a diet where you can eat meat, cheese and bacon but STILL not stick to it, there has to be other issues and I’m slowly figuring those issues out.

I don’t like to get too personal on here but just know that my mom is really sick and has been for about 8 years; it’s like a roller coaster, only the “downs” are when the DR tells you that your mom won’t live past the weekend and then a few weeks later she is eating popsicles and making jokes- it’s been to that extreme about 6-8 times and it really takes its toll on a person. Even on her good days, she is in an enormous amount of pain, can’t move herself and can basically only stare at a wall and then she gets rolled over to stare at the other wall…it’s not much of a life. The issue is in my head 24/7 and, at times, it can get really overwhelming and I just turn to food and here are the two main reasons I’ve come up with –

1.      I’m trying to commit a slow suicide. I know that sounds like I need some serious help but the longer the situation goes on, the more I realize that life isn’t beautiful- it’s brutal and painful and since we all die anyway, sometimes it feels like sooner is better.

2.      Control. This is a weird one but the more I focus on my weight, the more it pops up. I’ve been trying to think about what I’m feeling and why I’m eating every time I eat and it’s usually control. We were really poor, on food stamps and government help when I was a kid- all the way up until the day I moved out on my own and, even then, I was poor…we are still poor but doing better than a lot. I never had the freedom to walk into a store and buy anything I wanted and since I literally have everything I could possibly want, I turn to buying food. When you go on a diet or new way of eating, there are foods you “can’t” have and I think that is a huge part of the issue- I recognize that feeling I get when I walk into a store and tell myself that I can have ANY food in that place….ANYTHING! I go overboard and get this and that and those and the feeling is better than an orgasm. I’m not trying to get nasty on ya, just saying…it’s an amazing feeling…that then leads to crashing afterwards….then regret and then I start over again. That is addiction.

Right now, I seem to be at a good spot…I’m realizing the issues and hopefully it’s not too late to tackle them…I really want to get back to Sharketo and start using my awesome gym I’ve set up and get back to really “feeling” good but it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done and I know people get tired of riding on my roller coaster with me and I’m really trying my best to get off it.

I watch Boogie2988 and he just had weight loss surgery and I’ve always told myself I just won’t do that but it’s crept into my mind…I’ll be 40 years old in about 6 months and if I’m not on track by them, it could be a real option…but I don’t want to get to that point.

Boogie said something that really hit me….you can be overweight due to food and lack of exercise but when you get morbidly obese like I am (400 plus), there has to be something bigger…it’s not just that you eat too many calories, there has to be an addiction, emotional issues…something pushing you to basically commit slow suicide and until you understand that, you won’t be successful.

I’ve never quit trying…for the last decade…I’ve had some big success and even bigger failures but I’ve never just given up totally and I don’t plan to ever do that.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness
~~~~~shArky~~~~~

I’m Back

I think it may be time to finally get back….our house is coming along nicely! Everything is basically done and we just have a few more boxes to unpack, then clean and we should be able to get back to a regular schedule by the weekend.

Today was our son’s first day of middle school and he is super chunky- like his mom and dad- and I know my middle school days were fucking hell…..beyond miserable because kids are assholes and we really need to make a change now.

We were doing great on keto…I’m still down about 50 lbs. so we need to refocus and get back to it…we took about 1.5 months off to get the house bought, moved, painted…do the kitchen floor, work on the basement but that is all done and it’s now time.

I don’t really want to die before I can actually enjoy the house that we literally just put blood, sweat and tears into!

Tonight, we are going out to celebrate our sons first day and having a final “carb loaded” meal and then getting back on it tomorrow…doesn’t matter that it’s a Thursday or that it’s the 10th….we can no longer keep putting shit off until Monday or the first…etc.

It’s going to be hard and it’s going to be a nightmare trying to get our son off of snacks and shitty food but we are going to have to battle through it so he can be successful.

There are going to be bad days, cheat days and days that we just fall off the wagon but there can’t be any more of this multiple day bullshit.

The Sharketo Dojo is ready and waiting….I’ve got another 150 lbs. to lose and I need to do it NOW.

Look for more recipes (we now have a fucking amazing kitchen!) and be ready for more updates!!!

ALSO…..Burning Shadows just came out and my son and I have already opened a booster box and several 3 pack blisters and the pulls have been pretty damn amazing!

Gotta get back to what is important in life….Pokemon and health.

Love, Peace and Sharkness
~~~~shArky~~~~

A New Hope

My last update was 9 days ago and it’s time to get things back on track….honestly, I’ve had a decent reason though.

Yesterday, my wife and I signed the final papers and are now “homeowners” and I say that with quotes because we are basically just renting to own a house because the mortgage company is the actual owners but that is how life works; you can’t make it unless you are in debt.

Honestly, we’ve spent the last two weeks “celebrating”- no one explains to you that the house buying process is INSANE and no amount of “approvals” matter until you actually have a deed in your name. We got our first approval- so we took a day off from Sharketo to celebrate…then we got another approval and another AND ANOTHER!!! With every approval came a carb filled celebration because we thought the house was ours…only to be told there were more approvals to come…..and with those, more celebrations.

That is all done. No more approvals, no more celebrations….time to get back on track with burgers, cheese, bacon, etc and I’ve got my delicious salad of baby spinach, bacon, cheese and ranch for lunch- then hitting up my coffee when I get home and some delicious dinner and almost NO CARBS!

We can’t actually start working on our new house until Sunday but every day this month will be loaded with fixing cracks, sanding, panting, cleaning, moving and just non-stop moving- so the calories are going to get burned…if we can just stick to the MACROS, then we will be back in ketosis in no time and right back where we were! Even though we went over bored with celebrations…we didn’t do a crazy amount of damage so we should be fine.

The real exercise starts in August- once we have everything moved and the Sharketo Dojo set up and ready to go- it’s going to be amazing!

If you follow me on Facebook, you know I’ve talked about buying the house a lot and that is because it’s a huge step for someone like me- I grew up in the projects on welfare and food stamps; my mom busted her ass and got us into a house when I got into high school but it was through Section 8. Once I graduated, I moved back into the projects and then met the girl that became my wife. We lived in a small apartment, then we moved up to a duplex and then to a house….but we were always renters- owning a home didn’t seem possible to me and it still doesn’t really. I try to make my son understand the importance of this step but he only remembers living in a 3 bedroom brick home…so he doesn’t have a clue- and I guess that is a good thing.

He hasn’t gone through anything like I had to go through and I’m proud of that…that is the actual job of a parent- make sure they don’t die and make their childhood better than yours.

I have a very busy month ahead of me and my goal is NO MORE days off for the rest of the year- Sharketo 24/7! This is a huge step and I need to get this weight off in order to be around long enough to enjoy it!

Starting in August- we should be bringing you more reviews, recipes and several weekly updates so keep checking in!

Love, Peace and Sharkyness!
~~~~~shArky~~~~~

It’s A Revolution 

4 days from now, 2017 will be half over and I’m already seeing that infamous meme- “almost half way through 2017 and I lost no weight, didn’t learn anything, haven’t made an effort to save any money and still ugly”. It seems that every year I see something like that- people who make New Year’s Resolutions but just continue to live the same life and never trying to make anything better and it made me reflect on the first half of 2017 for myself and, honestly, I was pretty damn amazed!

I started off 2017 by not making New Year’s Resolution but by trying to start a Sharky Revolution.

Revolution: a forcible overthrow of a government or social order in favor of a new system.

I wanted to overthrow myself in favor of a new me and it seems to be working pretty awesome. I took January away from Facebook- I didn’t make any announcement of it, I just stopped posting and really slowed down on scrolling. I made a post on January 31st announcing that 2017 would be “The Year of The Shark”. So…at the half way point, let’s check out where I’m at-

1.      In January, I was one of only 19 individuals who got a 2016 Outstanding Employee Award, out of several hundred. There were several more “group” awards but only a handful of us actually got the plaque.

2.      In February I bought my wife Lady Gaga tickets (for a concert in NOVEMBER!!!) because she is the most amazing girl in the world.

3.      In February I announced my dedication to Pokemon…I’ve been into the cards for a few months and was really learning the game but I really go into it- I try to play every day, watch videos and learn about decks and how to get better- it’s the single greatest stress reliever I have ever found. It’s helped me stay away from news and just become a happier person.

4.      Sadly…also in February, I feel off the weight loss track after losing 15 lbs. but I did manage to maintain that 15 lbs lost under April…(more on that later)

5.      In March I started writing way more and revamped SharkysWorld.com into something I update more regularly and really pour my heart into.

6.      In late March, after reconsolidating all of my credit cards into one payment with a much lower rate, I finally upgraded from a 1999 Cavalier that was literally falling apart to a 2013 Dodge Avenger in amazing shop, good miles and has been an outstanding car.

7.      April 17th I started keto- aka Sharketo. I was still down 15 lbs. from earlier and I hit it really hard and I’ve stuck with it (for the most part) and I’m currently down 52 lbs. for the year. There has been some rough spots but it’s a way of eating that is really easy to get back into and your screw ups don’t set you back as much as with a different types of eating. I’m still pretty motivated and inspired to keep going- just need to slow down on the screw ups.

8.      On April 17th our son was Citizen of the Month for 2nd year in a row and received one of the special awards that only a small group of kids get.

9.      We spent April learning new recipes, cooking more and losing weight like crazy.

10.   In May I got my first booster box of Guardians Rising (Pokemon cards) and pulled a Secret Rare Gold Aqua Patch out of my first pack. 

11.   In May, my trading card charity – Commons4Kids donated our 7 millionth trading card! We’ve donated over 7 million cards now to kids in 13 different states and literally worked with people all over the world, in tons of different countries.

12.   Our son graduated from 5th grade in May- he graduated “with honors” as never making anything less than an A during his entire elementary school career and with being one of only three kids not missing a single day his 5thgrade year. His elementary school years were loaded with awards and accomplishments.

13.   May 26th my wife and I celebrated our 11th year of marriage (14 years together though!)

14.   May 31st, we signed a contract to make an offer on our first house!

15.   During June, our house got appraised, passed inspection and got final approval from the underwriter and we are only waiting on the title to come back and to set up the closing date AND I hit the 50 lbs. lost mark.

For me, 2017 has been NOTHING short of “The Year of The Shark” and I am very motivated to make the 2nd half of the year even better!

As for the meme from the first paragraph – “almost half way through 2017 and I lost 52 lbs., learned a ton about Pokemon while relieving stress, saved tons of money with lower interest rates while building up a credit score and reputation that has people throwing credit at us…but….still ugly”

I mean, come on guys, it’s really hard to fix ugly.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness
~~~~~shArky~~~~~

​Call Miss Peregrine…

…I’m stuck in a loop!!!

I lost some weight, screwed up a few days and jumped back to 399 last week- then I had a great week and got down to 388 on Saturday, only to screw up again and I didn’t even get on the scale this morning but I’m sure I’m back up again!

I keep working my ass off and getting lower during the week, screwing up on Saturday/Sunday and going way up and then spending the next 4-5 days getting back to I was, usually a pound or two lower. I do manage to scrap a pound or two but if I would stop screwing up and keep myself in ketosis, I would still be dropping mad weight!

There isn’t a reason for it either; that is what is so awesome about Sharketo- you get to eat amazing food! There is honestly no damn reason for me to keep doing this- anything I want, I can get a Sharketo friendly version of it…I honestly can’t explain it.

My only thoughts are that it’s more convenient and I honestly have a mental issue that I need to figure out. I was munching away on some cookies and it hit me and I told my wife “this is when I’m happiest” and it made me a bit sad. I grew up pretty poor and never had the ability to just walk into a store and literally buy anything I want and I seem to use that with food. It kills me to go somewhere and feel restricted on what I can buy- I’m the happiest when I walk in and tell myself- “you can have ANYTHING in this damn place!” So I buy candy, cookies, chips, etc because it’s almost like a power trip or something.

I told myself that I needed to be 100% honest in order for this to work and I want to tell you guys exactly what I go through to hopefully help someone in the same spot as I am- it’s something I have to work through. The reason it doesn’t make sense is, for example, candy- I can get sugar free candy and I honestly like the taste of it better but I still choose the stuff loaded with sugar/carbs, almost like to prove to myself that I can do what I want….it’s honestly fucked up. I don’t have to listen to myself, I can do whatever I want…screw myself. (See…..mental issues.)

It’s a form of self-sabotage and thankfully it hasn’t killed my entire progress…yet! I still managed to get a couple pounds down and be at my lowest so I have to get back up, get back on Sharketo and get the water weight that gained over the weekend back off and try to get some days/weeks/months of Sharketo in a row with NO CHEATS!

Hopefully we will get the final approval for house this week, having the closing early next week and then just focus the entire month of July on repairing, painting, cleaning and moving and stick with the plan.

I’ve had too much success to just give up at this point. I’ll punish myself tonight by eating an 80/20 hamburger with some bacon, mayo, sugar free ketchup and mustard…and some cheese! Yea, that should teach me a lesson….an amazing, delicious meal with about 2g of carbs.

See what I mean…no reason to NOT follow the Sharketo WOE.

Love, Peace and Sharkyness
~~~~~shArky~~~~~ 

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