Man…I haven’t updated in like a week!
Tons of stuff going on- getting tons of cards for Commons4Kids and finding groups of amazing folks to work with in the future. Getting everything set up to start streaming on Twitch and focus on Sharkfin Gaming.
Last weekend was a disaster and I realize that and I’m doing my best to learn from it…I got back to Sharketo on Monday and I’ve been there ever since and I already have that “amazing” feeling that we know and love. If you have done Sharketo (or any form of keto really) then you know that feeling of just pure awesomeness- which is another example of the power that carbs, sugars, etc have over you….you allow yourself to screw up and eat food that isn’t even that good and lose that amazing feeling…just for that “hit”. There is honestly no fucking reason for it. Period.
The hardest thing of this is always coming here and writing about another setback- a part of me just wants to ignore it, try to get back on track and move forward because it’s getting old writing the same bullshit every Monday (it seems it’s always on the weekend) but I need to write it out. This “journal” is mostly for me, to go back and re-read my journey and to remember where I’ve been or why something didn’t work but it’s also to show whoever reads it that this isn’t just a before/after picture on Instagram…that line between those two pictures is long and hard and a constant struggle. Very few people go straight from point A to point B without getting knocked off track.
I’ve been trying to lose weight for decades…literally.
I had some success by losing 117.8 lbs in 2005 over a period of about 13 months but I was miserable and felt like I was torturing myself. (this time I lost 110.8 lbs in 6 months and feel amazing!)
OK…well, I never actually left but I’m back on track with the weight stuff and I’m killing it!
It’s been a rough two months and all the stress would have pushed me to gain all the weight back but I gained some and then got right back on Sharketo and I’m down even more. 114.4 total lost since 01.01.2018.