First Appointment Recap
Yesterday’s appointment went pretty well…along with my wife, I too have deathly high blood pressure that puts me in high risk of heart attack and stroke….who saw that coming for the 440 lb’er?
After going over it with the DR, it seems that the sleeve procedure is the better option so I will be going with that.Got a ton of appointments set up between now and first week of October- when my surgery should be scheduled. I have to meet with dieticians, nutritionists. Cardio DR, have another sleep study, meet with CPAP folks, talk to a psychiatrist and who knows what else. On top of that, I have to prove (again) that I can lose weight on my own over the next 3 months…so I figure why not take it serious and (ONCE AGAIN) show everyone on this fucking rock that I don’t have a problem losing weight…I have a problem keeping it off.
I lost 112 lbs…then 50 lbs and 80 lbs and then 140 lbs- losing is NOT the problem. My goal is to drop 75 lbs from now to October 6th….the surgery isn’t scheduled yet but it should be during that week. That is roughly 5 lbs a week; I think I can maintain that average for 15 weeks since I’ll drop a ton of water weight my first week.
I haven’t been to the DR since they almost killed me back in March of 2018…go to the DR ONE TIME and now I have had BP, I’m morbidly obese and I could drop dead at any moment…that’s what going to the DR gets ya! I got a lot of work to do but these 15 weeks will fly by…no doubt.
Started today with a protein shake for breakfast and brought a salad for lunch. I’ve got it planned so that I’ll be on a weird special post-op diet during Thanksgiving and Christmas and then start to get into regular food around January 1st when everyone else is trying to lose weight as well.
The plan is to drop 75 lbs, have surgery and drop another 75 lbs so that I’m down 150 lbs by 01.01.2022. Then I’ll have another 70 lbs that I can focus on and drop/transform since I’ll be able to lift weights again then. I want to lose half of my weight and go from 440 lbs to 220 lbs which is still “overweight” but a sexy, big guy overweight I’m actually in the office today and then start my full work routine on Monday…as well as meeting with my weight loss coach/person or whatever.
On top of all of this, Evan will be going back to school in August and band season has already started with practices and stuff like that.
The other thing I need to focus on is my anger, stress and meditation.I literally hate everyone and everything and I spend about 90% of my life just pissed off at the bullshit around me…not so much from my wife/son but everything else just gets me. Last meal, I wanted jalapeno poppers from Arbys- nah fam, we outta those! Found a Stunning Steve Austin figure I wanted and the belt he came with looked a bit weird but I bought him anyway. Evan gets home from band practice and explains to me that he has the wrong belt. I do some research and realize someone had already bought this one, switched a shitty belt with the better belt and then returned it. Shit never…EVER…stops for me…it’s just shit like that all fucking day long and it builds up and I feel like Anger from “Inside Out”. I can honestly say I don’t think we have gotten a fast food order that wasn’t shitty or just wrong in years…nothing ever rings up right….shit stores say they have- they don’t. You get shitty service EVERYWHERE.
Called to have our old couch picked up and they said to have it out by 5am yesterday…which we did…the fucking couch is STILL THERE…even after the wife called and told them and they said “oh, you’ll be first on the list tomorrow”.
Still fucking there.I just can’t take the bullshit that’s all around me much longer man…I seriously can’t.
Ohmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ohmmmmmmmmmmm ohmmmmmmmmmmm
Love, Peace and Sharkyness